El Dorado Kids [7-11-13]

•5:57(pm)

[1] I write this for the awesome kids who come to Bible study./ I appreciate How yawl all are so excited and you keep asking./ [2] That brings me so much joy to know that God is doing something./ That you kiddos he's with and rescuing./

[3] I appreciate Michelle for her awesome memory./ I pray that God blesses her to read more of He./ [4] I appreciate Emari & Rosy./ The two future worship leaders who stay up stairs and is fond on niecy./ [5] I appreciate Peter for How to me he comes off as loyal, fiery and amazing./ Rolling around this place with Bible in hand.. which is indeed Awesome to me./ [6] Ol' Natya who may the one in the group who is most spunky./ The bravest little girl who just wants to sing./ [7] Also to Deandre who is such a major fan of the Heat./ You're an Awesome kid whose hair reminds myself before I let mines go at 16./ [8] Junior, the silent scooter pusher brother who is very nice to me./ I appreciate you for being so quiet.. even if Michelle may disagree./

[9] I love each and every one of you and My God loves all of you more./ I'm thankful also to David & Cody who were led here by the Lord./ [10] I pray that our time together is many more./ As much I love you guys, the truth is... Jesus loves each and every one of you more./

Skittles & Arizona [07-20-13]

•11:20(pm)

[1] Here is my two cents in all of this./ My hope is not to offend any with this perspective./ [2] Majority will most certainly have the opposite./ Maybe it would be different if I lived in Florida and not Salinas./

[3] So this Treyvon Martin case that just finished up./ A lot of those in my color box think this verdict being non guilty was messed up./ [4] The act of killing someone is indeed wrong, it so sucks./ I'm not trying to say that Zimmerman was in the right or Treyvon was not inno-sant./ [5] I'm saying is that I'm sick of people making it into race which is screwed up./ If we really slow it down and realize that this happens everyday in 'Merica./ [6] So it's like every single black innocent kid should be brought up./ Instead of saying that the justice is in the wrong because of his skin. Bruh -/ [7] you should just pray that God covers us all because we all guilty without Jesus./ Maybe I'm a little less compassionate about black folks dying since I live in Salinas./

[8] Whatever the case is, I must pray for the nation./ I'm not picking a side or condoning killing or people being racist./ [9] Only God knows the deceitful hearts of us men./ So because of What God did on that cross, we should love.. not judge them./

[10] I know that this could still be me as I walk home every early morn from work./ So people would be sad, but would it matter if the case goes to the Supreme Court?/

[11] Everyone deserves hell, even if they they die in a different way./ What we should long for is heaven & for Christ to be leader of our days./ [12] In these times I have to have Biblical faith and not black faith./ Doing this takes courage. Doing this very well may get you some hate./ [13] So before you get all pissed and want to make this about race./ Calm down. The courts verdict ain't the end.. For victims & hearts that are wicked. Just pray./

First Presbyterian Church [07-20-13]

•3:04(pm)

[1] I first want to apologize as I felt as though I should have already written this./ My thoughts which held me back was "Would this be enough encouragement?"/ [2] I could I chant and cheer on everyone to run to Jesus,/ Without coming off like I'm rebuking them./ [3] I guess I felt like I had to undergo many qualifications./ Then I realized that it don't take much to bless them./

[4] So hello to the Elders who are the head leadership after Christ./ I pray that God by his word and prayer give all of you wisdom and insight./ [5] Continue to be pillars who are only pillars because you follow and look to The Light./ I know things are tougher than I think, but you guys have my support to lead with Biblical love and minds./ [6] I pray that the enemy doesn't keep any of you in a bind./ I rebuke him. Recognize that he aims to destroy so a fragment of him shall not come by./

[7] To the Pastors, Jason, Cris, Joel, & Mike./ I pray that you all continue to preach Jesus Christ./ [8] Be encouraged and strengthen to know that by God yawl are touching many lives./ Many minds, Only God truly gets the glory even if people look at you men and idolize./ [9] You men are constant reminders to keep studying the word day & night./ To know that by Holy Spirit I can speak to any age group, since all can become new in Christ./

[10] To the worship team who I gladly feel apart of./ Every Sunday singing along to our Jesus./ [11] I encourage you brothers and sisters who are talented-/ To continue to keep running this race, and to flat out worship./ [12] I use to care so much about the kind of music./ That is until attending Hungry and eventually coming to the 10:45 worship service./

[13] I Just love my family who I so wish I knew more of./ So many people here that I wish I could hug./ [14] Just wishing I can have true fellowship with everyone./ Appreciate that I do with about a half of them on the second one-/ [15] The second service which together we shout to Jesus./ Get filled with His Love./

[16] Lord I pray that you bless the home that I attend./ Bless us to be a church of Biblical dedication./ [17] Somehow we will come up short like an abbreviation./ Yet we can still be that bride that is so loving./ [18] God bless the families here to be prominent in this body./ To be those who rise and fight in God's army./

[19] Lord Jesus, we need you to equip us more with Holy Spirit./ Have us to only speak the language of the world with the intention to get people to Jesus./ [20] I pray that you empower all the ministries to succeed in your mission./ Have us as a body to thirst, to hunger, and to cry out for Justice./ [21] To be a beacon of light that surrounds Salinas./ To be a salt mine that attracts those who need flavorin'

[22] Also I thank the staff who I know have a lot to accomplish./ I pray that by the strength of God you'll get through this and tasks finished./ [23] I also say thanks that for 7 months I have been cleaning./ This experience allows me to serve God in a different way all while being humble in the process./

[24] Lord I thank you for this home which at times I'm not sure if it is./ Please pray that I'll just continue to love FPC and to accept it./

Blind Battle [7/17/13]

•1:25(pm)

[1] I tend to see a whole lot of arguments about the Bible./ "Careful not to say anything offensive bro"./ [2] I'm not trying to cause strife like the Titanic that couldn't float./ Yet trying to wonder why people either have anger or crude jokes./ [3] To them the God of the Bible is false and the book is man wrote./ They proclaim themselves against God or god in a castle guarded by a dangerous moat./ [4] Some of these who argue are really intelligent, intellectual specimen who seem to know./ If God doesn't exists then how come it's OK for them to be absolutely cutthroat./ [5] Calling those foolish who actually believe in a living hope./ It's irritating to know in their eyes Christians are impractical jokes./ [6] It all makes sense. It really does if you really know./ That before you accepted Christ, you were pushing everyone down the slope./

[7] To those who don't know Christ what I'm saying is foolish./ They may even have good sounding details and visually ok evidence./ [8] Also you can't forget that their faith is that of common since./ There attitudes is very powerful and their speech is like this./ [9] "If I can't see Jesus now or concrete in depth evidence then it does not exist./ I'm a defender of the wise so ofcourse I have to point out things that are stupid/ [10] Look at all these sheep. It's my job to tell of God and to say that I'm different./ The Bible is written by men. I make you folks cry. I might as well call this anti-evangelism."/ [11] While most have hearts that declare this very rebellious and angry message./ Only a few of them are actually ones who are loud, knowlegable and outspoken. [12] Making me feel like what's the point of declaring Jesus if I were to ever approach them./ Like they are so passionate about Jesus not being alive.. How can I actually convince them./

[13] Then I realize that it's not my job to convince, but to love them./ Not every will enter the kingdom of heaven, I gotta let that sink in./ [14] Instead of getting mad that they don't accept Jesus./ Again, my job is to love them since they are human./ [15] I don't know if that person who is the biggest atheist./ or someone who professes to be a new age buddhist./ [16] Is someone I'll see after old earth is gone with./ And I come to found out they ran after Jesus with such grace and passion./ [17] So I shall not lose heart even in those difficult moments./ Realize that just because they don't agree meaning I can't love them./

[18] Now instead of looking at them with the biggest hate and strife./ What I need to do is intercede with battle cries./ [19] It's a must that I keep them in my prayers even if they don't surrender to Christ./ What these prayers will do is help me to look at them with love in my eyes./ [20] So I rebuke the father of lies./ Who deceived, tricked, and played many generations into thinking God is a lie./ [21] Also thinking that he, the devil is not real and evil is Just of the mind./ Praying that reluctant people everywhere will humble themselves to Christ./ [22] I don't write this all snarky in the voice of a southern Baptist saying "You're Goin' To Hell tonight./ Instead I say that if the Bible is fake and God is a lie../ [23] Then what's the point in telling people everywhere that a certain group is wrong.. some are right./ I mean when you look back on it.. Why did you ever waste your energy or time.?/

Hungry Bars {Volume #1.} [7-19-13]

•3:43(pm)

[1] On a Friday before work I am chilling while I write raps./ Hurling up dopness like throwing up yack./ [2] I rap about the one who has those fire contacts./ He gets me so high do you want to catch a contact./ [3] Even when I don't feel like writing crap./ I ask for God's help so that I have no excuse to slack./ [4] So let me get something down on the mat./ Look like I did it with ease like an NFL running back./

[5] I want to preach like Stephen to tick off Saducees./ I want to love & declare like Jesus which is a rebuke to Pharisees./ [6] When I'm in the spirit you can call me a parrot with the speech./ Every good and encouraging thing is from He who made me./ [7] I used to consider Christianity oh so boring./ Then I realized that the things I look into are nothing./ [8] Eyes covered like Ray Wonder until He took seals off of me./ Now I'm Paul with the pen bringing grace to my Family./

[9] Praising God that I get to eat at Hungry./ Get to be around people my own age who are starving./ [10] Ribs touching, yet we are so full that we devour every plate./ We all get equal share, yet a different portion of God's grace./ [11] All who come tonight are not all saved./ All are not walking. Some are asleep in their graves./ [12] We all trying to get closer to Christ even if we at times make it out to be a maze./ Joy is what we all can have, instead as a body we see things as a plague./

[13] So I'm getting my sword sharped to encouraged and to grow./ Yet having my heart focused on He who flows./ [14] The eloquence of God who created speech and has the best quotes./ He is also Love. Love is not Him. Just the all around nature of God is dope./ [15] Way more potent than any kilo of coke./ Yet by Holy Spirit And the blood of Jesus I don't have a dangerous inner & outer dose./ [16] God blessed me with His strength. So great seeds I'll throw./ Not concerned where they land because God is the one who causes any seed to grow./

[17] I really need to Just love folks./ Unconditionally only by first loving God who is most./ [18] Up high is where I expected things to be the most./ Maybe for once I'd like to be a surprised bro./ [19] Was encouraged that I should eat the stew out of my Bible./ Good to know how to cock and aim this living rifle./ [20] Maybe pride is on the inside so for everything I should be humble./ Appreciate that I have Jesus and in no area I should grumble./

Verbal Ship [06-12-13]

Poem based on James 3:1-12.

•3:52(pm)

[1] I have such a crazy and intense choice./ I'm the type to always want to use voice./ [2] I must be careful when wanting to make noise./ Especially since my rudder can cause drama amongst girls & boys./ [3] No Mercedes Benz, but over this ship I'll choose not to be destoyed./ Yet it's very tough to tame this maker of noise./ [4] The same instrument is one used for division./ With a whole onslaught of criticism from a small machine gun like cannon./ [5] It can burn up my body and fellow children./ I'm in utter need in surrendering this small member to My Pilot./ [6] Depend upon Him so I use fire set by Him to declare Him./ I need to know the words I speak over myself are not sin./

[7] Not words that crash me or others./ I have the choice to always bless God, myself & brothers./

[8] I'm writing this, asking Jesus./ Asking my Lord to please place a holy bit./ [9] Even if that's asking a lot, not a little bit,/ To be fully aware of God & a representer of Jesus./ [10] This verbal ship won't over take me unless I submit./ My words don't have to always be known to say what my heart is speakin'./ [11] I must be careful since His word I want to preach it./ Not Just with my words, but my life is spoken word, spoken by Jesus./

For Jesus. [07-07-13]

•9:40(am)

[1] Lord I write this to you this morning./ To be honest life for me is kind of boring./ [2] Yet, I know with you I am soaring./ Before I ask what can you do for me./ [3] I just want to glorify My King of Kings./ Raised me to life and just allows me to be on bended knees./ [4] Realizing who you are makes me see a better me./ Enough about Richard, I just want to focus on you.. You're intimacy./ [5] I realize that spending every moment with you is everything./ Not just in the word or prayer in the morning./ [6] Those are Good staring points now I pray that it's ongoing./ Today, Oh today I want a better glimpse of your glory./ [7] Floor my heart as you fill it. Give me heavenly lungs to breathe./ Make me aware of your love from now and when I awake from my sleep./

Not Empty Forever [07-15-13]

•5:03(pm)

[1] I'm really feeling tired of this./
It's clear to see that I need more of Jesus./ [2] My pridefull flesh has me saying to almost lust again./ Yet my humble spirit is seeking rather to trust in him./ [3] Jesus is my joy and my satisfaction./ So in him I should seek whenever I feel captive./ [4] I'm mad at my self because my words are in vain and careless./ Procrastinating has me like "go ahead and stay down, you're defeated./ [5] How could you be Christ like when you hardly stay seeking Jesus./ You're just a broken vessel who keeps making not just one empty promise."/ [6] Ok, I admit it that every small trigger I bombed it./ Every found technique I tend to wind up and lose it./ [7] Then I am reminded of where I was and who Jesus is./ He does not expect me to be perfect just to seek Him./ [8] Even if my emptiness is as huge as the grand canyon./ His love can easily make that area in to an ocean./

God Glorified [07-03-13]

•8:33[pm]

[1] I just want to see God Glorified./
In myself first, than to see anyone else cry./ [2] I just want to represent Him on all kinds of mic./ Preach, Rap, Teach & rejoice with my very life./ [3] I lift Jesus up since I was the reason He was crucified./ I lift Jesus up since for me He came back to life./ [4] Death Thought he won until Jesus was like "Psyche"./ I continue to rejoice with Christ since with Him there is no end in sight./ [5] No death, more like a recess to those who walk with Christ./ Follow Christ even if that means your humanity will be tourterd then you die./ [6] We are alive so since we are in Christ let us be new not blind./ That sight, Oh we can see, we can see so why we act like Jesus ain't save our lives./ [7] We are at war that's something we hardly grasp in this earthly life./ We get divided, accused and slandered against, but never rebuke the father of lies./ [8] Our hearts matter now if we choose to lift Jesus on high./ It will be a time where everyone will bow and proclaim Jesus is Lord.. let God be Glorified./

Amped Up. [06-09-13]

•7:15[am]

[1] So I guess as the title goes I'm a little amped./ Even more excited than when I aqquire food stamps./ [2] Not sure when I'll have a gathering soon with the sandman./ Singapore cane all across my melon like it was covered by a trash can./ [3] Kneeling on my knees like I'm too greater to stand./ Showing humility and creativity all because I do not want to crash./ [4] Seat belt is off like when dudes be wearing pants low with an embarrassing stance./ So some can pretend to be hard, but I'll remain in the fighter stance./

[5] At a red eye glance you can tell I can become a battle ax./ Dangerous all because I follow the shepherd. I represent the Lamb./ [6] I'll pray & preach the Gospel even if every square mile proclaiming was banned./ Not just with words, but carrying and living out God's word & plan./ [7] I'm bold, but mostly my flesh causes me to be a weak frail man./ Bleaching my mind with fear and insecurities like I was Stan./ [8] So information of the Bible in my head I cram./ All while coming to Christ & being intimate with Jesus because I'm a needy man./

[9] With Jesus I can so fly like I was Micheal in Space Jam./ Seeing red, No Bull instead of because His Blood which makes me a clean man./ [10] Any & every beat is a jobber that'll go down with a body slam./ Yet I become a heel on a beat and make the sound waves pay like it hurt my fam./ [11] The enemy ain't no friend or kin of me or even apart of my clan./ My God will reign an infinity, even he will reign a grand./ [12] I have that joy, my strength which at times causes me to laugh./ I say the name Jesus and demons run away like a brother done passed gassed./

[13] Giving God heart praise is such a noble task./ I mean any human can shout amen and throw a bunch of hand claps./ [14] When I come near my God I don't want it be me wearing a mask./ Why hide from Him since He's known me way before the past./ [15] I'll serve my God like a prophet who the people declare as mad./ Go ahead & enslave my body, but you can never take my Salva-chan./ [16] Lord God give me your strength to remain amped./ Fill me up so that I can pour out onto others in this land./

Sunday Honesty. [06-09-13]

•6:19[am]

(1) Lately it's always has been a minute with me./ I make commitments, but I also get distracted easily./ (2) So much so that the distractions causes me to become lazy/ A ill equipped thinker who has been procrastinating./ (3) Not just that, but I have been sort of praying./ Asking God to give me a desire for what I be saying./ (4) Like if the rhymes were dancing, then the paper is breaking./ Made with particles of earth so I'm in to quaking./ 

(5) Not really a Quaker since I'm more of a Grits man./ Not the music or the movement, I'm talking that nourishment fam./

(6) So let me say what I know I think./ I should just free write my poems while asking God to lead me./ (7) I only make it harder than it really needs to be./ Why am I aiming for perfect when it's easier targeting me./ (8) The only perfect shot was He who took artillery for me./ So if I'm reminded of Him in constant thoughts, then my aim in one should be three's./

(9) As I write this I haven't really gotten any shut eye./ I've been up all night messing with my phone, until I realized./

(10) I realized that I was letting the clock go to mildew./ Searching for Bible apps & sermons instead of reading & seeking truth./ (11) So eventually I got up with my ESV and went in the bathroom./ Got honest before God before eating the word like soup./ (12) For me personally I need it to stick to me like glue./ Become a burning sacrifice even if I'm only noticed by Him and not any of you./ (13) So consumed while at most my proclamations become mute./ No the enemy doesn't have me shut up, just me wanting to hear Holy Spirit who leads in truth./ (14) I'm not a know it all who knows everything, but what I do know is I want to see more fruit./ Want to see young Adults glorify Jesus instead of acting like He ain't coming back soon./

(15) All ages of Christ we should be eating meat, but most of us are still drinking milk with the spoon./ If you are their, then ask God why. I say this because I love you./ (16) I want to talk about His word and research in my Hungry group./ We will one day, I just need to write out those sermons and pass them out to all of you./

Believe In The Shield. [05/6/13]

°5:09(pm)

[1] When I speak of calling upon a great shield./ I just don't mean three men who seem to kill./
[2] I'm speaking of a true defender who doesn't need a piece of steel./ He packs a sword, a rod of iron to vanquish those who are ill./ [3] Correct meaning of those who stay in the dark defiling who might shrill./ Keep hold of your joy that's something they may want to steal./

[4] I'm aware that at almost every moment I can be in some kind of distress./ I still know he's there, here to be at my side more than any best friend./ [5] Riding around town on my bike without any problem./ Feeling so secure in knowing that the Lord is my helmet./ [6] I won't act big & bad and say that with every pain I can take it./ I will say that as long as Jesus is my shield I'll find peace in the furnace./

[7] No matter the flames that surround me like a rap battle stage./ Not like I'm encouraging the heat, but being bullied for things that I say./ [8] Persecution is absolutely everywhere, but I must remember that The Lord sustains./ Not every situation is absolutely clear, but I must consider all of The Lord's ways./ [9] Even if I become a spectacle for not joining the parade./ I realize that I'm in the army, and I'll continue to be different for stepping up and away./

[10] I need Jesus to dress me up in His Armor./ Which has padding that can block a regular sword./  [11] Not saying that it numbs the pain, but with armor I keep my focus on the lord./ No matter what happens, because of Him, I'm righteous in this world./ [12] Letting Salvation leak through my thoughts so I'm thinking pure./ Slicing away the enemy with The Spirit which is the Sword./

[13] As I'm delivering the Gospel of Peace I got my kicks on./ So sagging my pants is never an option when standing firm with the belt of truth on./

[14] So in every battle I use my faith as my shield./ To combat the enemies ways that aim to kill./ (15) So I'm strapped knowing that Jesus is real./ With that I have confidence in saying "Believe In The Shield."

Unconnected Dots [5/2/13]

•11:46(pm)

(1) I used to write rhymes everyday and night off of dedication./ I guess getting better each time was my only inspiration./

(2) I would often push my self to scribble out a few phrases./  Just so that I can have an extra day down on pages./ (3) Lately I wanted to write, but thinking "Besides Kent & Christi who would read this./ He already knows my heart, that He would be Jesus./

(4) So I guess it don't matter what I put down./ All I hope to do is to give you an upside down frown./ (5) All while fronting lyrical elegance like a bride in her gown./ Boldly written phone penciled statements that portray the new like uptown./ (6) Grab a spoon, a fork, their child spork and chow down./ As I give you truth, a sword, thanking my Lord who is always around./

(7) I hail from a big town and a small city./ I rest physically in a place that is down in the way of sinful acts and poverty./ (8) My Facebook timeline is hard to watch at times, I'm tempted into judging./ My tongue stays bitten off of people trippin' over foolishness./ (9) The intersection of online & actual life is non repentance./ Well, half of those online know Christ, well I dwell hardly know anything about Jesus./

(10) I'm trying to paint a poem that is not one that is plain./ Addressing the undressed all while in my backpack I carry a spare tire if anyone wants to change./ (11) I still need to rethink certain things that I do & say./ I'm not perfect, yet I'm not using that as an excuse to refuse change./

(12) Yo Dawg if you lived for your own happiness then are you clocking down until it's warn out./ That Y.O.L.O. term is actually what people think, only some are stupid to declare it out loud./ (13) Is your heart really smiling when you idolize the things that are around./ Is love so fickle that we fall so ugly when they make us cry.. We need tissues now./

(14) For those of you who are saved are you really living Unchained?/ Or are you living as people who say "This crap is apart of me, I could never change."/ (15) I try to let off something raw without sounding like I want people to suffer or be in pain./ All I'm saying is be joyful as your life is too short to keep any earthly gain./

(16) I tend to see a lot that makes me want to grab a soapbox, but who would listen./ Would I get ignored worse than the homeless by Christians who maybe feel like I'm religious./ (17) That's the biggest and cheapest jap that hurts like it was expensive./ I know we all sin different, but we need love & grace not enabling another brother or sister to sin./

(18) I used to love porn since my belief was that God had no female for me./ This had to be truth since females I liked didn't feel the same for me./ (19) If this was a drug then you can now call me clean./ If my future wife is reading this, please forgive me./ (20) I said that so I can tell you that it's amazing when The Lord allows you to have a testimony./ Testifying boldly to all who see that I visually victimized women & was a victim of pornography./

(21) I'm a sinner who has been set free, so Why hold on to chains./ Singing unto the Lord as if this was glee. Sometimes my raps makes No sense like 2 Chainz./

(22) I remember when I didn't think I belonged in this place./ Belonged in this world since I'm black in a brown space./ (23) Look for many years I felt like A Circle trying to fit in a square peg./ Like running a race on my left leg, which is my funny leg./ (24) Angry Thoughts towards old church for the pain./ Now thoughts of blessing Mt. Nebo because God healed me & showed me grace./ (25) I even thought that I was someone who was too much in your face./ Toning myself down so much that I had became afraid./

(26) On the women subject was this, Why in the world was I not like a magnet./ I mean my thinking was that not even one found me attractive./ (27) Like it was a huge turn off to mention Jesus./ I realize now that my main priority is Jesus./

(28) I often compared myself with my crush & certain sisters./ Almost like if I study all those units like them then I could be with her./ (29) I felt flustered to get ready in life like trying to wife her./ I had to repent since God is not them. I need freedom from all of the hers./

(30) I guess also I just wish we would look at our past and actually analyze./ Not just admit it, but actually change on how we do life./ (31) Not sure who is reading this, but I'm sorry if I've been a jerk to you, in my heart or in life./ I really want to be holy, not phony, so from now on & forever I desire & need to focus on Christ./

(32) I'm a rapper, well more like a witness for the risen Savior named Jesus./ Who by Holy Spirit teaches all of us./ (33) Even if it's hard & tough like lifting a pickup truck./ Bro, Do you repent, well you should when you know Jesus./

(34) Asking many marks of an exclamation that curves./ Making sure that my intentions & heart is heard and I desire to be pure./ (35) Jesus is my Messiah. He is coming a again of that I'm sure./ So let me love & let me fish.. Don't worry about the bait.. The Spirit brings the lure./

At His Feet. [04-16-13]

Luke 10:38-42 {ESV}

[38] Now as they went on their way, Jesus entered a village. And a woman named Martha welcomed him into her house. [39] And she had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet and listened to his teaching. [40] But Martha was distracted with much serving. And she went up to him and said, "Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Tell her then to help me." [41] But the Lord answered her, "Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, [42] but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her."

•1:21(pm)

[1] Martha, Oh that's the sister that I'm like./ So occupied with doing things for Jesus that I don't spend much time with Christ./ [2] Trying to perfect the distractions when storms arise./ Instead of just kneeling to He who is on the right side./ [3] Doing a whole lot of work could be suicide./ Especially when we don't concern He who is the author of life./ [4] For me spending a second in His Presence just ain't right./ Since I got the schedule to I should go ahead and make time./ [5] Even if life gets busier there should be no excuse to find./ Like being married, but working everyday like you don't have a wife./ [6]Experience the Love of Jesus, and not just when it's spontaneous or in big arenas where the worship is so tight./ This love He gives to me is very personal a very vital importance in my life./ [7] So, why in the world would I carry stress on shoulders like I'm about to fight./ This does not make me perfect, instead it makes me realize more & more that I need The Light./ [8] I have insecurities & fears that are really just big fat lies./ Well they would stay apparent & seem truthful if I didn't seem open to Christ./ [9] So I  gotta humble myself, and rest my inside./ Have my soul calm down while I come before He who bought my life./ [10] Like I said it's one thing to get up, but another to enjoy the quiet time./ I'm trying to let it not be so quick since it disturbs my shut eye./ [11] To be honest I pray to be excited about coming to Jesus Christ./ Even if I'm dog tired, cat relaxed, in the morning noon, day, or night.

Never Black, Pt. #1 [8-24-12]

°4:36(pm)

[1] I don't think that I ever truly "felt" black./ My skin color made me feel cool, my race made me feel wack./ [2] I would listen to tons of diverse Hip-hop, not just because I can rap./ [3] So in efforts to be real I donned & wore a mask./ I became prideful & foolish, thinking I didn't need school because I wrote raps./ [4] Only chocolate colored kid in majority of my classes./ Remember when I claimed Pro-Black with mad passion./

[5] My anger and confusion... people were aware of./ I think I may have blamed God for everything that I was./

[6] I idolized almost anyone black, rappers were Christ./ These are lies that satan had uttered to me many times./ [7] My eyes were on B.E.T. & XXL looking for inspirations when writing rhymes./ Thought that I could compromise since Kanye said that he walked with Christ./ [8] I looked up to rappers and their writtens, than looking at the light./ I thought I was less black if I didn't say the n word in a rhyme./

[9] Ignorant was how my people, how my people is & can be./ Prideful is when you escape from the level of humility./ [10] Lord, help me to see black people as those who look like me./ rather than those who are far worse than any Human Beings./ [11] Luke Warm is what I get when I watch B.E.T./ I should pray for that station rather than calling it a channel of the enemy./

[12] Maybe it has to do with my surroundings & how I grew up./ Trying too hard to be cool with the light & dark ones./ [13] Going to school made me hate & love being black. I was called the crazy one./ Viewed as the racist neighbor who loves blacks and offends everyone./ [14] Yeah, everyone else seemed to make me jealous and cuss./ I became stirred up all because society said they had better lives, basically I'd co-vut (covet)./

[15] God created us all, yes he created all colors./ So I'm glad I have a rainbow of sisters & brothers./ [16] I really do appreciate my heavenly father./ For a people so diverse, He choose to be the Savior, Yes he's the author./

[17] When I now look in the mirror I sometimes am overcome with joyful laughter./ My Race is beautiful, who says... Well the words of my master./ [18] And when I say race I just don't mean people of color./ I'm saying everyone who is a potential sister & a potential brother./

FEED ME MORE [4-4-13]

°10:45pm

[1] Inside, Oh inside I know that their must be more./ So I, Oh I want to eat much more./ [2] Oh, Jesus please bring me to being filled of you LORD./ You are the stock, so LORD fill up this store./ [3] This temple needs to tap into the ultimate power source./ How do I access that, Well by prayer, by soaking up him and devouring the sword./

[4] I'm sick of my self and the influence of earth so Jesus, be that cure./ Since before this new birth you were the one who I had to go to, to feel sure./ [5] Hole in my belly, very hard heart and Jesus you are my worth./ God I Thank you from taking someone that you made from dirt and brought him out of dirt./ [6] I'm asking Jesus to feed me with blood on my shirt./ No Canabalism, instead that was from the cleansing when he took all my sin & hurts./ [7] Died my death so now I stand before God no longer a curse./ Lord, bring me to my knees, humble me.. I don't want to be a jerk./

[8]So by the power of your Spirit please fill me more like Ryback./ Actually much more. Have me to rest, and to walk upon your path./

Mind Of Christ {4-3-13}

°4:57pm

[1] I come strapped with the mind of Jesus./
Well he renews me with his word & blood./
[2] I'm able to think of Him who gave it up./
Walked off the throne and showed me How it's supposed to be done./ [3] So every thought should be given to him, bruh./ Given to He who is righteous and He does fill up my cup./ [4] It's so great when I awake in grace & love./ Go right to prayer, want to do it often like caught in a storm of hiccups./ [5] My mind is one that is certainly made all the way up./ I knell to Jesus who heals my head and switches things up./

[6] So as I think more of Christ I work and proclaim not only with my tongue./ Every move I make is an exact dedication to the Glorious One./ [7] Seeing the homeless as people who just want Love./ My time, yes my seconds. Money sometimes is not even good enough./ [8] Watching little kids play, and your family enjoying each other just makes me declare Hallelujah./ He is worthy for every day even when my mind and actions are all in a rut./ [9] When I see people I want to think of love & salvation./ I must listen to Jesus to have that mind that speaks and hands that touch./ [10] Even if I don't do things perfect, I never will, yet I walk in grace and I'm clean.. That's What's Up./ So do whatever you can to walk with the Full Armor of God & Mind of Lord Jesus./

Art Of Fellowship {02-22-13}

•11:27pm

[1] Fellowship is such a beautiful thing./ Encouraging not just friends, but brotherly./ [2] Exalting one another while exalting King./
Wanting this may lead to awesome worshiping. / [3] Breaking of God's word, that means opening./ Getting deeper together, you're not lonely./ [4] Even if you guys don't get destination trying to reach./ What is awesome is that with Holy Spirit you seek./ [5] Going in many circles when topics come back into study./ Being amazed at How God is sovereign and He's amazing./ [6] You don't necessarily have to speak or read./ Just being there for your brother is just being family./ [7] Displaying Agape Shalom while with His presence you're serving./ Iron sharpens iron because each brother is getting that helping./ [8] Not just two gather. but I would say plus that./ It's really awesome when God's people showcase awesome contact./ [9] The Art of Fellowship is being there for those who are intact./ Nitted together by the blood of Jesus who protected us from the ultimate wack./

Proverbs 27:17.
Romans 13:10
Philippians 2:1-4

True Surrender {4-1-13}

°12:00pm

[1] At this point I'm finally able to get some kind of quiet time./ Kind of hypocritical since I'm still leaking with rhymes./ [2] This time will be to the one who most certainly does shine./ The more I search for Him, the more myself I find./ [3] Just like any other human I carry baggage or things come to mind./ Movies that are horrendous, and I just don't mean the nudey kind./ [4] Our culture zooms into shows that display human lives./ Even if it is reality it's not a way to even govern our insides./ [5] Just because something tastes good does not mean you should have a slice./ I say this with pain as I have two open rotting teeth on both sides./ [6] When I say that I can handle the sugar then I'm speaking with pride./ My health is suffering since I was eating candy, and ouch on my bottom left side./ [7] What I'm saying that we as people need to be so much more wise./ What we put into our bodies may corrupt our hearts and defile our minds./ [8] This is why with everything we encounter we must confront Christ./ Some of you feel like that's stupid, but from experience I say it's stupid to believe your own lies./ [9] We all need to wake up and be those who surrender day and night./ So what if you worship like cray on Sundays, After Church what is your Heart Cry./ [10] I know we all have  struggles, but we're not muggles,  we're in Christ./ We have Holy Spirit inside of us. Let us access Him, instead falling so easily.. COME ON CHURCH LET US SURRENDER & FIGHT./ [11] The best way we die daily is everyday giving everything to Christ./ Also when you fall look for His hand, I mean He is right there by your side./ [12] I say this with Love. I'm tired of seeing a Luke Warm Bride./ Let Us Surrender as a Body to Our Husband, To Our Jesus, The Christ.

Uphill. {4-1-13}

°11:11am

[1] He's been traveling on this road for longer than a minute./ Older than a teen, yet still feels in that bracket./ [2] He's not a juggler, so he's not one to balance./ Lady in and out of mind, but it may just be attraction./ [3] He wants to persue things, but needs to gain more experience./ [4] He tends to worry and get impatient since He always thinks he's found the it./ Only problem is that he's not sure he's found gold. His heart always fools him./ [5] Little seeds planted in his dome about what could happen./ All he needs is someone to understand or to slap him./ [6] Water for this elephant who might be the biggest./ Man Up from a boy is the hardest perspective./ [7] This battle is so uphill all because it's all inside of him./ The more he dwells upon it is more of when things become caution./ [8] Apologies won't really help since no one is complaining about this being a problem./ What he really needs to do is to cast this more to Jesus./ [9] Realize that no matter what Jesus Christ is preparing him./ All he needs to do is wait and not think of this./ [10] That's the hardest thing, so please pray for manly kid./ That he would not use order of operations on calculus./ [11] So while he is on the desert land or mountain./ He can be guarded with the full armor of Jesus./ [12] He admits when he's weak hopefully it's not too late or an early rush./ He tries to be Mr. Cautious who is careful.. no matter what./

Ill For Jesus {3-28-13}

[1] I have so many raps written in my head./ That I have to be slow and not rush steps./ [2] It's like rushing out the door without brushing teeth./ I need to take my time like when Driscoll speaks./ [3] Taking a methodical approach to cut deep./ Making sure what I implore is a nudge in sleep./ [4] Before when I went forth I brought up me./ Now that I'm reborn, old is torn, Jesus is King./ [5] By grace, not forced I roar about majesty./ since I've morphed by my Lord, I sing./ [6] Speaking by sword, not of corpse, I know He's Holy./ He's such a Good Lord who pours Love On Me./

Late Early {2-21-13}

°12:03pm

[1] This writing a rhyme time-/ could possibly be my late quiet time./ [2] Even with interruptions and sound bites./ I will still write for Jesus Christ./ [3] I'm always taking breaks so He's Glorified./ If I don't do this I'll lose my mind./ [4] So it does not matter the time,/ I can praise Him with every word I write./ [5] It's like having a full plate,  and taking bites./ Also when it tastes good, I have more pie./ [6] It does not matter if I'm late or on time./ My God, Oh My God is Always on time./ [7] I can come before His Throne bearing rhymes./ Or speak nothing while He renews my mind./ [8] If your day starts late --------> Rejoice In Christ./ Because He woke you up, So He's worthy to be glorified./ [9] Don't pay attention to everything before Christ./ I'm rebuking myself, so I repent in this line./ [10] Take even just a second to be humbled before fight./ We are in a war, with Holy Spirit we can act right./

[11] Again it doesn't matter if it's late or early./ Remember that God is always, yeah He's always worthy./

Re-Established {2-20-13}

°12:30pm

[1] I want to start setting things in stone./ Even if with myself I know I'm prone./ [2] Prone to be hot & cold and hardly in zone./ I want to be disciplined so I can grow. [3] Become a Man even if things feel slow./ I ask for prayers to be Spirit led & dope./ [4] To focus on Christ & Life instead of jokes./ I am in Christ, so it's time to just show./ [5] Well by His Grace certain seeds already have sown./ I just want to focus on Him because life is always on the go./

[6] I also need to take things one day at a time./ I'm so prone to do a lot at once to make up for lost time./ [7] God has been speaking to me is to repent, and go back to where I fell out of line./ Instead of doing it all quickly —> doing that makes me lose my mind./ [8] Jesus, Oh LORD please, would you please stay in my sights./ I just want to run, yet I don't even want to exhaust any of my pipes./

Proverbs 16:9, Jeremiah 29:11, Matthew 11:28-29, Hebrews 12:1-2

Times During Worship

(1) I'm drawing blanks at worship.
Time is standing still on purpose.
(2) No I'm not feeling like I'm worthless.
Realizing that I'm needy of Perfect.
(3) This moment right now is very urgent.
To give my full attention is priceless.
(4)Yet its something that is the hardest.
With Holy Spirit there needs to partnership.
(5) My mind drifts easily while trying to focus.
Taken off guard for just a moment.
(6) In my on strength I'm forever hopeless.
Struggling, yet being filled with grace during distractions.
(7) Moving in different areas, where am I Goin?
I want to receive even if for an hour I'm frozen.

UPDATE

Just letting everyone know that I haven't abandoned this blog, but I've been lazy. I also have been writing them in my journal since on my phone gets distracting with texts and sometimes I don't save my material. So keep me in prayer and support with writing awesome stuff to this blog. Email me at miistarsiv@gmail.com for feedback. Also let me know the one(s) that touched you, be specific. Same applies if you have me as a friend on Facebook.

Praise {1-19-13}

°9:05am

(1) Oh Lord God I give you praise./ For your providence everyday./
(2) I am simply overwhelmed and amazed./ You continue to shower me with Grace./ (3)You have provided me with much faith./ Your Name I shall always Proclaim./ (4) You accept me despite my various stains./ Cleaned me and led me to be unashamed./ (5) Chained to Christ while I'm unchained./ Unchained from those shackles that said : SLAVE/ (6) I cling to Christ because HE knows my name./ He's my healer who is with me in the pain./ (7) I Run to His arms because HE Saves./ HE is Lord & I Desire to be in His Ways./ (8) I want to work for HIM everyday./ Lead people to you even if I have no name./ (9) It's all about Jesus, so I don't exist today./ I Exist for HIM and I tell people The Way!/ (10) Also show them Jesus with Unconditional Love & Grace./ I'm just a messenger who seeks HIS Face./ (11) I Exist to Give God All Glory & All PRAISE./ To Do HIS Will and Be Obedient, yet I go astray./

A Story-01 {08/01/2012}

°1:02pm

This is something I wrote during the summer and tried memorizing it to get it on video.... Well I did..  just not Good enough... This is a new year... So maybe it will be accomplished this year.

(1) Gather around children I have this to say.
I want to tell you a story that may touch you today.

(2) It all started way back when darkness covered.
The person had no kin, he wished for a brother.
(3) In him wants to depict some kind of lover,
So inside he makes idols… He says their imaginary others.
(4) Chains were his attire. Used to being called a sucker.
A loud mouth who often was loud as Chris Tucker.
(5) The darkness made him feel ugly because of his flubber.
Not safe when he was not motivated to move weight like a Hustler.
(6) The Darkness held up un-cleaned mirrors like an evil Janitor.
Making him feel like a hot mess all over like he had many sores & lepers.
(7) Seemed like he was all alone & no one ever enters his sector.
If only there was some kind of button or a lever.

(8) Gather around children I have this to say.
I want to tell you a story that may touch you today.

(9) A light flashed right before his eyes & he was stunned.
The shock in him was like someone pulled out a gun.
(10) He was forced to mute movement instead of run.
The Light covered The Darkness and the misery was done.
(11) The Light declared him to be a candle & a son.
Now he felt warmth, he felt the fiery flames from the Son.
(12) All of his failures became dead, for once in life he had won.
Light held up cleaned mirrors and he saw a beautiful creat-cha.
(13) Tears ran down his face because now he met Jesus.
This Light stepped in front of the Darkness & down came his blood.
(14) Without Jesus: The True Light, he would never felt love.
Instead he would of been living in darkness hating every mo-munt.

"A Mighty Psalm Of Richard 003 {Prayer for to See Christ & HUNGRY}" 05/25/2012 02:30(pm)

(1) Oh Lord I pray that my eyes become fixated on Jesus Christ.
To be led by him, even if the planet earth thinks that I am blind.
(2) Thinking that I'm either following the truth or escaped my mind.
I pray to take all insults in with humility, no need for swallowing pride.
(3) God, Oh wonderful & powerful father I pray that we reach you tonight.
I pray that your spirit falls afresh on Hungry & makes us all start to cry.
(4) Breakdown because of sin or because you're the best thing in our lives.
I'm no Brainiac or no smarty pants. I'm intelligent with jeans when speaking of light.
(5) Jesus, you're the Light of The World, & forever you'll reign all of the time.
We used to be in a situation where we could never receive salvation… Oh look at the time.
(6) Now we have the chance as humanity to ask the one & only Jesus to change our lives.
Not just a ticket to the eternal resting place, but an invitation to forever fellowship with Christ.

(7) I pray that you bless the team who is up to worship in your Holy name.
Actually lord that includes all of Hungry. Even those who are new to this place.
(8) Let every single person be captivated by your presence. Let us seek your face.
Let us gladly worship you. Let us gladly shout who Jesus' is. Lord become our embrace.
(9) Shoot embers deep down in our souls that even our bodies won't be a good place to contain.
Lord, let us proclaim that we are not worthy to receive even an ounce of your grace.
(10) Jesus you love us so much that you offer us so much, & all we can do is take.
You saw past our mishaps. Past our retched sin that disfigured the emotions on our face.
(11) Even if our feet hurt, oh they will hurt, yet that does not matter… this is no kind of chase.
Rather these are children seeing daddy, best friend, and king. All running in an intense pace.
(12) Even if things become confusing like we we're trapped in a corn maze.
We will all make it out of there, Oh Lord by your power increase our childlike faith.
(13) I pray that everything we deposit you rip to shreds & Jesus please throw it away.
Have your way and will tonight at Hungry. Let nothing or no one  leave that area the same as they came.
(14) Let us not show off for the sake of others, instead let come bolding worshiping in your name.
I pray against Satan for trying to have thoughts of conceit enter our brains… Jesus… please obliterate.
(15) Give us the power of the Holy Spirit to fight against our sinful & fleshly ways.
Even if we have to shout out our hurts. Even if it is in hearts. LORD… let us give you our pain.
(16) I'm so stoked right now at the moment because I know you want your kids to be changed.
even more changed than they are now, take us to the point where It's you we love, & sin we hate.

(Old, Yet Goodie) A Mighty Psalm Of Richard 001 05/02/12 03:31(pm)

(1) This rhyme is a little long over due.
The fire inside myself has become a bigger fuse.
(2) All because I feel like God has been leaving me many clues.
& Loving and Leaning on him is the most biggest rule.
(3) The gift he gave it should have been better used.
I was so caught up with not getting a ego, so writing for him I refused.
(4) I also became a lazy person-slash-a-procrastinating dude.
As long as he's pulling me, than I can make any moves.

(5) Yet it's not really moving, meaning it's not my strength.
He commands me to take each step. Yet I'm the one who makes mistakes.
(6) If my vision does not include him, then I need to seek his face.
He needs to be the picture, in all of the angles in the rectangular shape.
(7) Lord, I want to see you clear like the water that I taste.
Lord, I'll do whatever it takes to find you. I'll even go thru a maze.
(8) Rejoicing in shackles that are of freedom which is from your grace.
Some might not understand that when you died & rose for me, I became your slave.

(9) His name will be tattooed on my face that which proclaims Revelation 22:4
Right after I see the face of the one that I oh so truly adore.
(10) Oh, Jesus let it not be in vain when I cry out "Lord, Lord, Lord."
No matter how much I experience the Risen Christ, Oh I got to have more.
(11) Jesus I need your spirit to surge through me like the world's biggest power cord.
Yet the power you give me will be way much better than anything I've experienced before.
(12) Guide me my father as you led me in Salinas on the Jesus Christ is Coming Soon Tour.
I need to speak salvation to the deaf & show Jesus to the blind, who don't know of the Lord.

(13) I'm feeling juiced up by the Spirit as if I was Paul writing this spirit filled rap.
I have a big itch to rebuke those who refuse to get right & stay on this narrow path.
(14) When most hear Rebuke they see it as something hateful like an abused slap.
Instead it's a correction so that family won't fall in to damnation & forced away from Abba's hands.
(15) I'm tired of sitting in the circles, especially if the ones in it are about ready to stand.
Become true martyr's. Witnesses who are willing to lay down there life beside the Holy Lamb.
(16) I represent Jesus Christ who makes the term real today seem fake, especially in this land-
Of America which is dying quick. Good thing my prayers are backed by the creator of all the lands.

Pray {01-03-13}

° 11:07(am)

(1) I just want to declare that prayer is absolutely amazing./ It's not just me memorizing his word that is within in me./ (2) Prayer is awesome because It's a dialogue between the Creator of Everything./ Oh, Lord help my heart to say the right things./ (3) My heart is so wicked and at times I hurl out iniquity./ My selfish desires make me look foolish before a God so Holy./ (4) We should not just pray when when things are vividly devastating./ We should pray because without him we become so worldly./

(5) We shall enter his throne with bold humility./ Have that reverence and understanding that we don't deserve Good things./ (6) By Grace I walk towards Christ Jesus who cleans all of me./ I ask Christ Jesus what He thinks of me./ (7) I proclaim to Him that no one on this earth is as amazing./ He's God. My God, I will shout forth his name and his deity./ (8) Everything comes from his hands, everything comes from the words he speaks./

(9) I Thank Christ Jesus for dying on the Cross for me, way back on Calvary./ (10) I praise Him that I can bear great fruit like Johnny Appleseed./ (11) I Thank Jesus he is always, Yes he's always with me./ Even when I feel abandoned, he's.still conjoined with me./ (12) Jesus, Oh Jesus you're still the same Jesus that you were in past centuries./ I Praise You Lord Jesus that despite my failures you remain real to me./

(13) I pray that people would become saved./ Depression would end and people would be amazed. (14) I pray that your Spirit would stir up our hearts every day./ I pray for a revival, one so big that written all over it will be your name./ (15) Lord I pray for chains to be broken and people to be free today./ Lord I pray that your life would be experienced today./ (16) Lord Jesus please show Salinas, and The World Amazing Love And Grace./ Father God Allow Your Will To Be Done Today./

Grace That Bought Me To The Fold {1-1-13}

°11:33pm

(1) It is my first rhyme written in 2013./ What I can say so far is that I feel amazing./ (2) It's like for months I was on egg shells not breathing./ My mind was always going, no time for sleeping./ (3) Now I have rest all because their was a moment for a explaining./ I praise God that through tenderness He sought me./ (4) I was feeling and thinking like Russel Crowe, Good thing I did off Le Bridge./ Liked when he smacked the water so hard, I laughed and almost squealed like a pig. ./ (5) I was thinking why drown in Grace when in my Sin I will sin./ Jesus, Why are you sooooo Good to me who is merely a human./ (6) You're so tender towards this citizen, that I have to tell my local natives about How You Give./ I was a thief who didn't want grace, I instead was so used to being like my first Father Adam./ (7) I was in doubt asking could God fix what my eyes say are broken./ I thought there would be no mercy mixed with massive confusion./ (8) Yet God spoke and allowed me to utter what was hidden./ Before I even said anything Kent assured me that I was forgiven./

(9) Through Christ on the first of 2013 my brother was tender./ So used to harsh replies that I was afraid to detail my mental agenda./ (10) Understanding entered and patience came along, and don't forget Love./ He showed me unconditional, it blew me away.. darn.. and WE STILL DIDN'T EVEN HUG./ (11) Yet we prayed, gave God praise, sipped Coffee, and Did the will of Our Father by passing out Pizza./ Just when I thought I was in the lost, Jesus assured me that no matter what-/ (12) He is still there displaying tender mercy, powerful love, amazing grace, and He's praying from above./ (13) I have a brother who cares a whole lot more that my fingers can count, plus a toe touch./ I'm so thankful that Jesus is with me, oh Yes he's with me,.. Oh, Family that's love./ (14) His Kind Heart made me go in for surgery to change mine and to be renewed by his blood./ It feels Great connecting with Jesus, It's a lot better than being on drugs./ (15) I never been on narcotics, but I've caught contacts that made me appear messed up./ Laughing at absolutely everything to the point where you start to crump./ (16) I Thank You LORD JESUS FOR RESTORING A REALLY AWESOME SPIRITUAL BRO HUG./ JESUS CHRIST IS ALIVE, HE'S COMING BACK AND ABOUT ABOVE ALL ELSE, THAT IS INDEED WHAT'S UP./