Friday, May 3, 2013

Unconnected Dots [5/2/13]

•11:46(pm)

(1) I used to write rhymes everyday and night off of dedication./ I guess getting better each time was my only inspiration./

(2) I would often push my self to scribble out a few phrases./  Just so that I can have an extra day down on pages./ (3) Lately I wanted to write, but thinking "Besides Kent & Christi who would read this./ He already knows my heart, that He would be Jesus./

(4) So I guess it don't matter what I put down./ All I hope to do is to give you an upside down frown./ (5) All while fronting lyrical elegance like a bride in her gown./ Boldly written phone penciled statements that portray the new like uptown./ (6) Grab a spoon, a fork, their child spork and chow down./ As I give you truth, a sword, thanking my Lord who is always around./

(7) I hail from a big town and a small city./ I rest physically in a place that is down in the way of sinful acts and poverty./ (8) My Facebook timeline is hard to watch at times, I'm tempted into judging./ My tongue stays bitten off of people trippin' over foolishness./ (9) The intersection of online & actual life is non repentance./ Well, half of those online know Christ, well I dwell hardly know anything about Jesus./

(10) I'm trying to paint a poem that is not one that is plain./ Addressing the undressed all while in my backpack I carry a spare tire if anyone wants to change./ (11) I still need to rethink certain things that I do & say./ I'm not perfect, yet I'm not using that as an excuse to refuse change./

(12) Yo Dawg if you lived for your own happiness then are you clocking down until it's warn out./ That Y.O.L.O. term is actually what people think, only some are stupid to declare it out loud./ (13) Is your heart really smiling when you idolize the things that are around./ Is love so fickle that we fall so ugly when they make us cry.. We need tissues now./

(14) For those of you who are saved are you really living Unchained?/ Or are you living as people who say "This crap is apart of me, I could never change."/ (15) I try to let off something raw without sounding like I want people to suffer or be in pain./ All I'm saying is be joyful as your life is too short to keep any earthly gain./

(16) I tend to see a lot that makes me want to grab a soapbox, but who would listen./ Would I get ignored worse than the homeless by Christians who maybe feel like I'm religious./ (17) That's the biggest and cheapest jap that hurts like it was expensive./ I know we all sin different, but we need love & grace not enabling another brother or sister to sin./

(18) I used to love porn since my belief was that God had no female for me./ This had to be truth since females I liked didn't feel the same for me./ (19) If this was a drug then you can now call me clean./ If my future wife is reading this, please forgive me./ (20) I said that so I can tell you that it's amazing when The Lord allows you to have a testimony./ Testifying boldly to all who see that I visually victimized women & was a victim of pornography./

(21) I'm a sinner who has been set free, so Why hold on to chains./ Singing unto the Lord as if this was glee. Sometimes my raps makes No sense like 2 Chainz./

(22) I remember when I didn't think I belonged in this place./ Belonged in this world since I'm black in a brown space./ (23) Look for many years I felt like A Circle trying to fit in a square peg./ Like running a race on my left leg, which is my funny leg./ (24) Angry Thoughts towards old church for the pain./ Now thoughts of blessing Mt. Nebo because God healed me & showed me grace./ (25) I even thought that I was someone who was too much in your face./ Toning myself down so much that I had became afraid./

(26) On the women subject was this, Why in the world was I not like a magnet./ I mean my thinking was that not even one found me attractive./ (27) Like it was a huge turn off to mention Jesus./ I realize now that my main priority is Jesus./

(28) I often compared myself with my crush & certain sisters./ Almost like if I study all those units like them then I could be with her./ (29) I felt flustered to get ready in life like trying to wife her./ I had to repent since God is not them. I need freedom from all of the hers./

(30) I guess also I just wish we would look at our past and actually analyze./ Not just admit it, but actually change on how we do life./ (31) Not sure who is reading this, but I'm sorry if I've been a jerk to you, in my heart or in life./ I really want to be holy, not phony, so from now on & forever I desire & need to focus on Christ./

(32) I'm a rapper, well more like a witness for the risen Savior named Jesus./ Who by Holy Spirit teaches all of us./ (33) Even if it's hard & tough like lifting a pickup truck./ Bro, Do you repent, well you should when you know Jesus./

(34) Asking many marks of an exclamation that curves./ Making sure that my intentions & heart is heard and I desire to be pure./ (35) Jesus is my Messiah. He is coming a again of that I'm sure./ So let me love & let me fish.. Don't worry about the bait.. The Spirit brings the lure./

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