"Joanne Carter" 8/3/11 1:15(pm)

(1) I find this rather difficult to write for someone who I love with heart.

Yeah it can be easy, but I want to show you my best, so it has to be hard.

(2) Decorate this planet of paper with a nice scent to be smelled by a star.

The Sun of my life that is literally closer than me than Sun is to Mars.

(3) She's been through a lot, but at times she proudly displays her scars.

Those scrapes may cause pain, but in a long mighty way she has came far.

(4) My protector who for 22 years has been my true & rightful guard.

Conjoined like twins at birth or a devoted married couple, we shall never depart.

(5) At times our lives seem like it's smashed & smushed like broken glass shards.

God gave you the ability to survive & to keep going until forever with smarts.

(6) A certain wittiness that displays confidence & wisdom that is like a crafted art.

I praise God for you being my mother, because I know that I drive you bonkers like Marge.

(7) Sometimes you wear the agony in your face & sometimes the pinches are very sharp.

I have faith in you that you're strong enough, I mean tough enough to go a lot more far.

(8) I know your age has limited you in a physical aspect, but that has actually enlarged your heart.

Your Heart Failure of Congestion is just speed bump that you will get around to find a place to park.

(9) Mommy I truly adore everything about you, Gosh at times I wish I had your heart.

Your will to stay in the fight even if you don't see you winning, even when people say it's not smart.

(10) Our God, My God, Your God is one who is on our side and he's in our hearts.

This may not be nothing much, yeah I know it's late, but it's not a birthday like card.

(11) Instead it's a birthday poem celebrating that day I had actually became a part-

of this earth, Took so long because I had to search for words to make you mark.

(12) That's a wrestling term that means to go insane in a good way with every single part -

of thing inside you that would paint out happiness & excitement that's joyful & sharp.

(13) Yet when it hits you, it touches you in a way that you feel the love in your heart.

This is an appreciation to someone who has had my back & my front since the start.

(14) So thank you again for holding grasping firm  of my hand when times get really hard.

I'm right here with you so don't worry. I'm by your side with honor like it's the easy part.

(15) We may be facing tougher & harsher times & I pray that we will never part.

We just have to look to the heavens for the light to overshadow the dirty dark.

"Pre Love/1st Like"

9/24/14

•5:43(pm)

(1) It's not difficult to describe this,/
that I follow like a cult and I'm a hopeless romantic. (2) In my mind I'm froze on a chick./ Like I don't know why my cycle is this. (3) A girl is nice, she's wifie type like only lady to exist./ Say more than hi, even replies, could she be my rib?/ (4) Thoughts are accelerating like Spongebob & kids./ I gotta catch myself from mess making, so I need a bib./

(5) Not just for my lips, but more for my heart./ Do I love her or like her? Can't tell feelings apart./ (6) Sometimes I wish I had a lack of heart like Tony Stark./ Or temporarily freeze it until I depart or share heart./

(7) Wondering if worrying is the major problem./ Jumping & fantasizing without realizing caution./ (8) Yet I'm not asking or talking, Is it that I'm in lust like David's kid./ Wanting & pleading her to please take notice./ (9) Once they do even if It's as a friend, I pour out devotion./ I'm starting the car, got it running, but she's not getting in./ (10) Here I go telling myself & God she's the one./ I need to realize that a crush is just a crush & pre love ain't love./

"I don't want to be alone"

8/14/14   10:11pm

(1) What is this feeling like I have no gut./
like I'm an electric acoustic that's unplugged./
(2) What soothes this, maybe ice cream in a coffee mug./ Maybe an anti-depresent to have me wanting more hugs./ (3) No one around to listen as my sighs volume up./ The darkness gets explicit as the seconds pass me up./

(4) Deep down in my gut why do I feel hungry./ Also a lack of love like I've been shot and I'm bleeding./ (5) Not by buckets of blood, but emotionally & spiritually./ It's hard waking up in the am when in dreams I taste defeat. (6) I'm afflicted in the mud and tongue is on pig's feet./ Wishing I can wake up when I think I'm still sleep./

(7) Not to say this poem is deep, but I feel like that. Not just in ways that I think, it's much more than that./ (8) Like I'm in a hole bottom of the sea, losing air, needing oxygen mask./ Painted like I'm about to be on Dream St. playing Sega Dreamcast./ (8) If you understood what was wrong with me, then pat my back./ Understand that I need family even if they cause me to be sad./

(10) It does seem like I'm prone try to sit and mope./ This is the honest truth tho, that I don't want to be alone./

"Our Clique"

4/21/14  10:47(am)

[1] Look, man It's hard to break us up./
We've been a crew so long & we like being stuck./ [2] This club is exclusive; we mainly keep the door shut./ The only way you getting in is if you act like us./ [3] We're very selective, but you may make the cut./ If you're accepted you're not to interact with anyone. [4] If someone tries to engage you, ignore them to shut them up./ If that doesn't work keep smiling & nodding until they're done./ [5]You are to only chill with us. We're you're only family./ Keep in mind that we found you when you had nobody./ [6] Outspoken? Nah, we tolerated your existence & let you speak./ Converted you to our culture so now you better rep we./ [7] I don't want to hear about how you're here to know peeps./ You are to follow us & sleep when we say sleep, ya sheep./

[8] Could this be jealousy or explaining how we thirst when we're lonely./ We as the Church of Christ shouldn't choose who we love unconditionally./ [9] Jesus may had 12 disciples, and out of three he held closely./ Yet when it was time for Him to love all, He did it openly & equally./

My brothers, show no partiality as you hold the faith in our Lord Jesus Christ, the Lord of glory.

James 2:1 [ESV]

God's Love & God's Faith -inspired by Psalm 36-

God's Love & God's Faith
February 14, 2014 1:36am

[1] Giving honor to my God whose love remains steadfast./ My LORD has that enduring love that makes hearts glad./

[2] His love is a reason why I responded to the number He called me at./ That's time and a place even if I don't remember those facts./.

[3] He's my heavenly Father and I wouldn't want to change that./ Adopted me so now I have the actual rights to say dad./

[4] Faithfulness to clouds? Who without God is touchin' that?/  Even with God your faith compared to His is kind of sad./

[5] So even when we slip in slime, He still has open arms... ain't that rad?/ He ain't leavin', Praise be to Jesus by sending us someone to help us be on track./

[6] Back to how His love goes past the blue sky to gold pads./ This same love that'll have you full of faith in fire like Shadrach./

[7] This ain't that same love that is obsessed with intolerance./ All I know is this love covers me even when worst happens./

[8] I praise a God, The God who loves, and that live is action./ Could He could of still loved us even if the Gospel never happened?

Cold Walks, Sweet Talks

Cold Walks, Sweet Talks
December 28th, 2013 11:46pm

(1) As we gather under the banter of those who declare the master. / My aim is to not pander, but keep us as rappers who chatter. /

(2) When we start to worship we dancers rejoicing of blood spatter./ This time together really matters it adds to our illustrious chapters. /

(3) Many times our confession is like a crapper who's a smelly panther. / Doing silly panda dances while we wait for sky crack or the rapture. /

(4) I'm serving up these love cakes with more agape to lather./ Let us act like his infants even if we need change of pampers. /

(5) Come on bride, together we supposed to shine like lanterns- / Minus the plural, it's about Jesus yo so let our heart burn. /

(6) Together, oh forever let us together do that amazing work./Walk by faith, our hands holding hands with father. /

(7) Yeah, so let us really live this life even if it's the death of us. /Yet as His Bride, His Ride or Die we simply won't die bruh. /

(8) We need to be one, not just in building or association. / Organized or not we are called to walk & talk by Adoption & Regeneration ./

El Dorado Kids [7-11-13]

•5:57(pm)

[1] I write this for the awesome kids who come to Bible study./ I appreciate How yawl all are so excited and you keep asking./ [2] That brings me so much joy to know that God is doing something./ That you kiddos he's with and rescuing./

[3] I appreciate Michelle for her awesome memory./ I pray that God blesses her to read more of He./ [4] I appreciate Emari & Rosy./ The two future worship leaders who stay up stairs and is fond on niecy./ [5] I appreciate Peter for How to me he comes off as loyal, fiery and amazing./ Rolling around this place with Bible in hand.. which is indeed Awesome to me./ [6] Ol' Natya who may the one in the group who is most spunky./ The bravest little girl who just wants to sing./ [7] Also to Deandre who is such a major fan of the Heat./ You're an Awesome kid whose hair reminds myself before I let mines go at 16./ [8] Junior, the silent scooter pusher brother who is very nice to me./ I appreciate you for being so quiet.. even if Michelle may disagree./

[9] I love each and every one of you and My God loves all of you more./ I'm thankful also to David & Cody who were led here by the Lord./ [10] I pray that our time together is many more./ As much I love you guys, the truth is... Jesus loves each and every one of you more./

Skittles & Arizona [07-20-13]

•11:20(pm)

[1] Here is my two cents in all of this./ My hope is not to offend any with this perspective./ [2] Majority will most certainly have the opposite./ Maybe it would be different if I lived in Florida and not Salinas./

[3] So this Treyvon Martin case that just finished up./ A lot of those in my color box think this verdict being non guilty was messed up./ [4] The act of killing someone is indeed wrong, it so sucks./ I'm not trying to say that Zimmerman was in the right or Treyvon was not inno-sant./ [5] I'm saying is that I'm sick of people making it into race which is screwed up./ If we really slow it down and realize that this happens everyday in 'Merica./ [6] So it's like every single black innocent kid should be brought up./ Instead of saying that the justice is in the wrong because of his skin. Bruh -/ [7] you should just pray that God covers us all because we all guilty without Jesus./ Maybe I'm a little less compassionate about black folks dying since I live in Salinas./

[8] Whatever the case is, I must pray for the nation./ I'm not picking a side or condoning killing or people being racist./ [9] Only God knows the deceitful hearts of us men./ So because of What God did on that cross, we should love.. not judge them./

[10] I know that this could still be me as I walk home every early morn from work./ So people would be sad, but would it matter if the case goes to the Supreme Court?/

[11] Everyone deserves hell, even if they they die in a different way./ What we should long for is heaven & for Christ to be leader of our days./ [12] In these times I have to have Biblical faith and not black faith./ Doing this takes courage. Doing this very well may get you some hate./ [13] So before you get all pissed and want to make this about race./ Calm down. The courts verdict ain't the end.. For victims & hearts that are wicked. Just pray./

First Presbyterian Church [07-20-13]

•3:04(pm)

[1] I first want to apologize as I felt as though I should have already written this./ My thoughts which held me back was "Would this be enough encouragement?"/ [2] I could I chant and cheer on everyone to run to Jesus,/ Without coming off like I'm rebuking them./ [3] I guess I felt like I had to undergo many qualifications./ Then I realized that it don't take much to bless them./

[4] So hello to the Elders who are the head leadership after Christ./ I pray that God by his word and prayer give all of you wisdom and insight./ [5] Continue to be pillars who are only pillars because you follow and look to The Light./ I know things are tougher than I think, but you guys have my support to lead with Biblical love and minds./ [6] I pray that the enemy doesn't keep any of you in a bind./ I rebuke him. Recognize that he aims to destroy so a fragment of him shall not come by./

[7] To the Pastors, Jason, Cris, Joel, & Mike./ I pray that you all continue to preach Jesus Christ./ [8] Be encouraged and strengthen to know that by God yawl are touching many lives./ Many minds, Only God truly gets the glory even if people look at you men and idolize./ [9] You men are constant reminders to keep studying the word day & night./ To know that by Holy Spirit I can speak to any age group, since all can become new in Christ./

[10] To the worship team who I gladly feel apart of./ Every Sunday singing along to our Jesus./ [11] I encourage you brothers and sisters who are talented-/ To continue to keep running this race, and to flat out worship./ [12] I use to care so much about the kind of music./ That is until attending Hungry and eventually coming to the 10:45 worship service./

[13] I Just love my family who I so wish I knew more of./ So many people here that I wish I could hug./ [14] Just wishing I can have true fellowship with everyone./ Appreciate that I do with about a half of them on the second one-/ [15] The second service which together we shout to Jesus./ Get filled with His Love./

[16] Lord I pray that you bless the home that I attend./ Bless us to be a church of Biblical dedication./ [17] Somehow we will come up short like an abbreviation./ Yet we can still be that bride that is so loving./ [18] God bless the families here to be prominent in this body./ To be those who rise and fight in God's army./

[19] Lord Jesus, we need you to equip us more with Holy Spirit./ Have us to only speak the language of the world with the intention to get people to Jesus./ [20] I pray that you empower all the ministries to succeed in your mission./ Have us as a body to thirst, to hunger, and to cry out for Justice./ [21] To be a beacon of light that surrounds Salinas./ To be a salt mine that attracts those who need flavorin'

[22] Also I thank the staff who I know have a lot to accomplish./ I pray that by the strength of God you'll get through this and tasks finished./ [23] I also say thanks that for 7 months I have been cleaning./ This experience allows me to serve God in a different way all while being humble in the process./

[24] Lord I thank you for this home which at times I'm not sure if it is./ Please pray that I'll just continue to love FPC and to accept it./

Blind Battle [7/17/13]

•1:25(pm)

[1] I tend to see a whole lot of arguments about the Bible./ "Careful not to say anything offensive bro"./ [2] I'm not trying to cause strife like the Titanic that couldn't float./ Yet trying to wonder why people either have anger or crude jokes./ [3] To them the God of the Bible is false and the book is man wrote./ They proclaim themselves against God or god in a castle guarded by a dangerous moat./ [4] Some of these who argue are really intelligent, intellectual specimen who seem to know./ If God doesn't exists then how come it's OK for them to be absolutely cutthroat./ [5] Calling those foolish who actually believe in a living hope./ It's irritating to know in their eyes Christians are impractical jokes./ [6] It all makes sense. It really does if you really know./ That before you accepted Christ, you were pushing everyone down the slope./

[7] To those who don't know Christ what I'm saying is foolish./ They may even have good sounding details and visually ok evidence./ [8] Also you can't forget that their faith is that of common since./ There attitudes is very powerful and their speech is like this./ [9] "If I can't see Jesus now or concrete in depth evidence then it does not exist./ I'm a defender of the wise so ofcourse I have to point out things that are stupid/ [10] Look at all these sheep. It's my job to tell of God and to say that I'm different./ The Bible is written by men. I make you folks cry. I might as well call this anti-evangelism."/ [11] While most have hearts that declare this very rebellious and angry message./ Only a few of them are actually ones who are loud, knowlegable and outspoken. [12] Making me feel like what's the point of declaring Jesus if I were to ever approach them./ Like they are so passionate about Jesus not being alive.. How can I actually convince them./

[13] Then I realize that it's not my job to convince, but to love them./ Not every will enter the kingdom of heaven, I gotta let that sink in./ [14] Instead of getting mad that they don't accept Jesus./ Again, my job is to love them since they are human./ [15] I don't know if that person who is the biggest atheist./ or someone who professes to be a new age buddhist./ [16] Is someone I'll see after old earth is gone with./ And I come to found out they ran after Jesus with such grace and passion./ [17] So I shall not lose heart even in those difficult moments./ Realize that just because they don't agree meaning I can't love them./

[18] Now instead of looking at them with the biggest hate and strife./ What I need to do is intercede with battle cries./ [19] It's a must that I keep them in my prayers even if they don't surrender to Christ./ What these prayers will do is help me to look at them with love in my eyes./ [20] So I rebuke the father of lies./ Who deceived, tricked, and played many generations into thinking God is a lie./ [21] Also thinking that he, the devil is not real and evil is Just of the mind./ Praying that reluctant people everywhere will humble themselves to Christ./ [22] I don't write this all snarky in the voice of a southern Baptist saying "You're Goin' To Hell tonight./ Instead I say that if the Bible is fake and God is a lie../ [23] Then what's the point in telling people everywhere that a certain group is wrong.. some are right./ I mean when you look back on it.. Why did you ever waste your energy or time.?/

Hungry Bars {Volume #1.} [7-19-13]

•3:43(pm)

[1] On a Friday before work I am chilling while I write raps./ Hurling up dopness like throwing up yack./ [2] I rap about the one who has those fire contacts./ He gets me so high do you want to catch a contact./ [3] Even when I don't feel like writing crap./ I ask for God's help so that I have no excuse to slack./ [4] So let me get something down on the mat./ Look like I did it with ease like an NFL running back./

[5] I want to preach like Stephen to tick off Saducees./ I want to love & declare like Jesus which is a rebuke to Pharisees./ [6] When I'm in the spirit you can call me a parrot with the speech./ Every good and encouraging thing is from He who made me./ [7] I used to consider Christianity oh so boring./ Then I realized that the things I look into are nothing./ [8] Eyes covered like Ray Wonder until He took seals off of me./ Now I'm Paul with the pen bringing grace to my Family./

[9] Praising God that I get to eat at Hungry./ Get to be around people my own age who are starving./ [10] Ribs touching, yet we are so full that we devour every plate./ We all get equal share, yet a different portion of God's grace./ [11] All who come tonight are not all saved./ All are not walking. Some are asleep in their graves./ [12] We all trying to get closer to Christ even if we at times make it out to be a maze./ Joy is what we all can have, instead as a body we see things as a plague./

[13] So I'm getting my sword sharped to encouraged and to grow./ Yet having my heart focused on He who flows./ [14] The eloquence of God who created speech and has the best quotes./ He is also Love. Love is not Him. Just the all around nature of God is dope./ [15] Way more potent than any kilo of coke./ Yet by Holy Spirit And the blood of Jesus I don't have a dangerous inner & outer dose./ [16] God blessed me with His strength. So great seeds I'll throw./ Not concerned where they land because God is the one who causes any seed to grow./

[17] I really need to Just love folks./ Unconditionally only by first loving God who is most./ [18] Up high is where I expected things to be the most./ Maybe for once I'd like to be a surprised bro./ [19] Was encouraged that I should eat the stew out of my Bible./ Good to know how to cock and aim this living rifle./ [20] Maybe pride is on the inside so for everything I should be humble./ Appreciate that I have Jesus and in no area I should grumble./

Verbal Ship [06-12-13]

Poem based on James 3:1-12.

•3:52(pm)

[1] I have such a crazy and intense choice./ I'm the type to always want to use voice./ [2] I must be careful when wanting to make noise./ Especially since my rudder can cause drama amongst girls & boys./ [3] No Mercedes Benz, but over this ship I'll choose not to be destoyed./ Yet it's very tough to tame this maker of noise./ [4] The same instrument is one used for division./ With a whole onslaught of criticism from a small machine gun like cannon./ [5] It can burn up my body and fellow children./ I'm in utter need in surrendering this small member to My Pilot./ [6] Depend upon Him so I use fire set by Him to declare Him./ I need to know the words I speak over myself are not sin./

[7] Not words that crash me or others./ I have the choice to always bless God, myself & brothers./

[8] I'm writing this, asking Jesus./ Asking my Lord to please place a holy bit./ [9] Even if that's asking a lot, not a little bit,/ To be fully aware of God & a representer of Jesus./ [10] This verbal ship won't over take me unless I submit./ My words don't have to always be known to say what my heart is speakin'./ [11] I must be careful since His word I want to preach it./ Not Just with my words, but my life is spoken word, spoken by Jesus./

For Jesus. [07-07-13]

•9:40(am)

[1] Lord I write this to you this morning./ To be honest life for me is kind of boring./ [2] Yet, I know with you I am soaring./ Before I ask what can you do for me./ [3] I just want to glorify My King of Kings./ Raised me to life and just allows me to be on bended knees./ [4] Realizing who you are makes me see a better me./ Enough about Richard, I just want to focus on you.. You're intimacy./ [5] I realize that spending every moment with you is everything./ Not just in the word or prayer in the morning./ [6] Those are Good staring points now I pray that it's ongoing./ Today, Oh today I want a better glimpse of your glory./ [7] Floor my heart as you fill it. Give me heavenly lungs to breathe./ Make me aware of your love from now and when I awake from my sleep./

Not Empty Forever [07-15-13]

•5:03(pm)

[1] I'm really feeling tired of this./
It's clear to see that I need more of Jesus./ [2] My pridefull flesh has me saying to almost lust again./ Yet my humble spirit is seeking rather to trust in him./ [3] Jesus is my joy and my satisfaction./ So in him I should seek whenever I feel captive./ [4] I'm mad at my self because my words are in vain and careless./ Procrastinating has me like "go ahead and stay down, you're defeated./ [5] How could you be Christ like when you hardly stay seeking Jesus./ You're just a broken vessel who keeps making not just one empty promise."/ [6] Ok, I admit it that every small trigger I bombed it./ Every found technique I tend to wind up and lose it./ [7] Then I am reminded of where I was and who Jesus is./ He does not expect me to be perfect just to seek Him./ [8] Even if my emptiness is as huge as the grand canyon./ His love can easily make that area in to an ocean./

God Glorified [07-03-13]

•8:33[pm]

[1] I just want to see God Glorified./
In myself first, than to see anyone else cry./ [2] I just want to represent Him on all kinds of mic./ Preach, Rap, Teach & rejoice with my very life./ [3] I lift Jesus up since I was the reason He was crucified./ I lift Jesus up since for me He came back to life./ [4] Death Thought he won until Jesus was like "Psyche"./ I continue to rejoice with Christ since with Him there is no end in sight./ [5] No death, more like a recess to those who walk with Christ./ Follow Christ even if that means your humanity will be tourterd then you die./ [6] We are alive so since we are in Christ let us be new not blind./ That sight, Oh we can see, we can see so why we act like Jesus ain't save our lives./ [7] We are at war that's something we hardly grasp in this earthly life./ We get divided, accused and slandered against, but never rebuke the father of lies./ [8] Our hearts matter now if we choose to lift Jesus on high./ It will be a time where everyone will bow and proclaim Jesus is Lord.. let God be Glorified./

Amped Up. [06-09-13]

•7:15[am]

[1] So I guess as the title goes I'm a little amped./ Even more excited than when I aqquire food stamps./ [2] Not sure when I'll have a gathering soon with the sandman./ Singapore cane all across my melon like it was covered by a trash can./ [3] Kneeling on my knees like I'm too greater to stand./ Showing humility and creativity all because I do not want to crash./ [4] Seat belt is off like when dudes be wearing pants low with an embarrassing stance./ So some can pretend to be hard, but I'll remain in the fighter stance./

[5] At a red eye glance you can tell I can become a battle ax./ Dangerous all because I follow the shepherd. I represent the Lamb./ [6] I'll pray & preach the Gospel even if every square mile proclaiming was banned./ Not just with words, but carrying and living out God's word & plan./ [7] I'm bold, but mostly my flesh causes me to be a weak frail man./ Bleaching my mind with fear and insecurities like I was Stan./ [8] So information of the Bible in my head I cram./ All while coming to Christ & being intimate with Jesus because I'm a needy man./

[9] With Jesus I can so fly like I was Micheal in Space Jam./ Seeing red, No Bull instead of because His Blood which makes me a clean man./ [10] Any & every beat is a jobber that'll go down with a body slam./ Yet I become a heel on a beat and make the sound waves pay like it hurt my fam./ [11] The enemy ain't no friend or kin of me or even apart of my clan./ My God will reign an infinity, even he will reign a grand./ [12] I have that joy, my strength which at times causes me to laugh./ I say the name Jesus and demons run away like a brother done passed gassed./

[13] Giving God heart praise is such a noble task./ I mean any human can shout amen and throw a bunch of hand claps./ [14] When I come near my God I don't want it be me wearing a mask./ Why hide from Him since He's known me way before the past./ [15] I'll serve my God like a prophet who the people declare as mad./ Go ahead & enslave my body, but you can never take my Salva-chan./ [16] Lord God give me your strength to remain amped./ Fill me up so that I can pour out onto others in this land./

Sunday Honesty. [06-09-13]

•6:19[am]

(1) Lately it's always has been a minute with me./ I make commitments, but I also get distracted easily./ (2) So much so that the distractions causes me to become lazy/ A ill equipped thinker who has been procrastinating./ (3) Not just that, but I have been sort of praying./ Asking God to give me a desire for what I be saying./ (4) Like if the rhymes were dancing, then the paper is breaking./ Made with particles of earth so I'm in to quaking./ 

(5) Not really a Quaker since I'm more of a Grits man./ Not the music or the movement, I'm talking that nourishment fam./

(6) So let me say what I know I think./ I should just free write my poems while asking God to lead me./ (7) I only make it harder than it really needs to be./ Why am I aiming for perfect when it's easier targeting me./ (8) The only perfect shot was He who took artillery for me./ So if I'm reminded of Him in constant thoughts, then my aim in one should be three's./

(9) As I write this I haven't really gotten any shut eye./ I've been up all night messing with my phone, until I realized./

(10) I realized that I was letting the clock go to mildew./ Searching for Bible apps & sermons instead of reading & seeking truth./ (11) So eventually I got up with my ESV and went in the bathroom./ Got honest before God before eating the word like soup./ (12) For me personally I need it to stick to me like glue./ Become a burning sacrifice even if I'm only noticed by Him and not any of you./ (13) So consumed while at most my proclamations become mute./ No the enemy doesn't have me shut up, just me wanting to hear Holy Spirit who leads in truth./ (14) I'm not a know it all who knows everything, but what I do know is I want to see more fruit./ Want to see young Adults glorify Jesus instead of acting like He ain't coming back soon./

(15) All ages of Christ we should be eating meat, but most of us are still drinking milk with the spoon./ If you are their, then ask God why. I say this because I love you./ (16) I want to talk about His word and research in my Hungry group./ We will one day, I just need to write out those sermons and pass them out to all of you./

Believe In The Shield. [05/6/13]

°5:09(pm)

[1] When I speak of calling upon a great shield./ I just don't mean three men who seem to kill./
[2] I'm speaking of a true defender who doesn't need a piece of steel./ He packs a sword, a rod of iron to vanquish those who are ill./ [3] Correct meaning of those who stay in the dark defiling who might shrill./ Keep hold of your joy that's something they may want to steal./

[4] I'm aware that at almost every moment I can be in some kind of distress./ I still know he's there, here to be at my side more than any best friend./ [5] Riding around town on my bike without any problem./ Feeling so secure in knowing that the Lord is my helmet./ [6] I won't act big & bad and say that with every pain I can take it./ I will say that as long as Jesus is my shield I'll find peace in the furnace./

[7] No matter the flames that surround me like a rap battle stage./ Not like I'm encouraging the heat, but being bullied for things that I say./ [8] Persecution is absolutely everywhere, but I must remember that The Lord sustains./ Not every situation is absolutely clear, but I must consider all of The Lord's ways./ [9] Even if I become a spectacle for not joining the parade./ I realize that I'm in the army, and I'll continue to be different for stepping up and away./

[10] I need Jesus to dress me up in His Armor./ Which has padding that can block a regular sword./  [11] Not saying that it numbs the pain, but with armor I keep my focus on the lord./ No matter what happens, because of Him, I'm righteous in this world./ [12] Letting Salvation leak through my thoughts so I'm thinking pure./ Slicing away the enemy with The Spirit which is the Sword./

[13] As I'm delivering the Gospel of Peace I got my kicks on./ So sagging my pants is never an option when standing firm with the belt of truth on./

[14] So in every battle I use my faith as my shield./ To combat the enemies ways that aim to kill./ (15) So I'm strapped knowing that Jesus is real./ With that I have confidence in saying "Believe In The Shield."

Unconnected Dots [5/2/13]

•11:46(pm)

(1) I used to write rhymes everyday and night off of dedication./ I guess getting better each time was my only inspiration./

(2) I would often push my self to scribble out a few phrases./  Just so that I can have an extra day down on pages./ (3) Lately I wanted to write, but thinking "Besides Kent & Christi who would read this./ He already knows my heart, that He would be Jesus./

(4) So I guess it don't matter what I put down./ All I hope to do is to give you an upside down frown./ (5) All while fronting lyrical elegance like a bride in her gown./ Boldly written phone penciled statements that portray the new like uptown./ (6) Grab a spoon, a fork, their child spork and chow down./ As I give you truth, a sword, thanking my Lord who is always around./

(7) I hail from a big town and a small city./ I rest physically in a place that is down in the way of sinful acts and poverty./ (8) My Facebook timeline is hard to watch at times, I'm tempted into judging./ My tongue stays bitten off of people trippin' over foolishness./ (9) The intersection of online & actual life is non repentance./ Well, half of those online know Christ, well I dwell hardly know anything about Jesus./

(10) I'm trying to paint a poem that is not one that is plain./ Addressing the undressed all while in my backpack I carry a spare tire if anyone wants to change./ (11) I still need to rethink certain things that I do & say./ I'm not perfect, yet I'm not using that as an excuse to refuse change./

(12) Yo Dawg if you lived for your own happiness then are you clocking down until it's warn out./ That Y.O.L.O. term is actually what people think, only some are stupid to declare it out loud./ (13) Is your heart really smiling when you idolize the things that are around./ Is love so fickle that we fall so ugly when they make us cry.. We need tissues now./

(14) For those of you who are saved are you really living Unchained?/ Or are you living as people who say "This crap is apart of me, I could never change."/ (15) I try to let off something raw without sounding like I want people to suffer or be in pain./ All I'm saying is be joyful as your life is too short to keep any earthly gain./

(16) I tend to see a lot that makes me want to grab a soapbox, but who would listen./ Would I get ignored worse than the homeless by Christians who maybe feel like I'm religious./ (17) That's the biggest and cheapest jap that hurts like it was expensive./ I know we all sin different, but we need love & grace not enabling another brother or sister to sin./

(18) I used to love porn since my belief was that God had no female for me./ This had to be truth since females I liked didn't feel the same for me./ (19) If this was a drug then you can now call me clean./ If my future wife is reading this, please forgive me./ (20) I said that so I can tell you that it's amazing when The Lord allows you to have a testimony./ Testifying boldly to all who see that I visually victimized women & was a victim of pornography./

(21) I'm a sinner who has been set free, so Why hold on to chains./ Singing unto the Lord as if this was glee. Sometimes my raps makes No sense like 2 Chainz./

(22) I remember when I didn't think I belonged in this place./ Belonged in this world since I'm black in a brown space./ (23) Look for many years I felt like A Circle trying to fit in a square peg./ Like running a race on my left leg, which is my funny leg./ (24) Angry Thoughts towards old church for the pain./ Now thoughts of blessing Mt. Nebo because God healed me & showed me grace./ (25) I even thought that I was someone who was too much in your face./ Toning myself down so much that I had became afraid./

(26) On the women subject was this, Why in the world was I not like a magnet./ I mean my thinking was that not even one found me attractive./ (27) Like it was a huge turn off to mention Jesus./ I realize now that my main priority is Jesus./

(28) I often compared myself with my crush & certain sisters./ Almost like if I study all those units like them then I could be with her./ (29) I felt flustered to get ready in life like trying to wife her./ I had to repent since God is not them. I need freedom from all of the hers./

(30) I guess also I just wish we would look at our past and actually analyze./ Not just admit it, but actually change on how we do life./ (31) Not sure who is reading this, but I'm sorry if I've been a jerk to you, in my heart or in life./ I really want to be holy, not phony, so from now on & forever I desire & need to focus on Christ./

(32) I'm a rapper, well more like a witness for the risen Savior named Jesus./ Who by Holy Spirit teaches all of us./ (33) Even if it's hard & tough like lifting a pickup truck./ Bro, Do you repent, well you should when you know Jesus./

(34) Asking many marks of an exclamation that curves./ Making sure that my intentions & heart is heard and I desire to be pure./ (35) Jesus is my Messiah. He is coming a again of that I'm sure./ So let me love & let me fish.. Don't worry about the bait.. The Spirit brings the lure./

At His Feet. [04-16-13]

Luke 10:38-42 {ESV}

[38] Now as they went on their way, Jesus entered a village. And a woman named Martha welcomed him into her house. [39] And she had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet and listened to his teaching. [40] But Martha was distracted with much serving. And she went up to him and said, "Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Tell her then to help me." [41] But the Lord answered her, "Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, [42] but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her."

•1:21(pm)

[1] Martha, Oh that's the sister that I'm like./ So occupied with doing things for Jesus that I don't spend much time with Christ./ [2] Trying to perfect the distractions when storms arise./ Instead of just kneeling to He who is on the right side./ [3] Doing a whole lot of work could be suicide./ Especially when we don't concern He who is the author of life./ [4] For me spending a second in His Presence just ain't right./ Since I got the schedule to I should go ahead and make time./ [5] Even if life gets busier there should be no excuse to find./ Like being married, but working everyday like you don't have a wife./ [6]Experience the Love of Jesus, and not just when it's spontaneous or in big arenas where the worship is so tight./ This love He gives to me is very personal a very vital importance in my life./ [7] So, why in the world would I carry stress on shoulders like I'm about to fight./ This does not make me perfect, instead it makes me realize more & more that I need The Light./ [8] I have insecurities & fears that are really just big fat lies./ Well they would stay apparent & seem truthful if I didn't seem open to Christ./ [9] So I  gotta humble myself, and rest my inside./ Have my soul calm down while I come before He who bought my life./ [10] Like I said it's one thing to get up, but another to enjoy the quiet time./ I'm trying to let it not be so quick since it disturbs my shut eye./ [11] To be honest I pray to be excited about coming to Jesus Christ./ Even if I'm dog tired, cat relaxed, in the morning noon, day, or night.